I sat in the rain and watched it play,
Down my solemn window pane.
And through the rhythm, i reached for your hand,
But you took solitude, away have you ran.
I did but just once wish to feel some compassion,
To stand at your side, not alone.
And you turned me away for the fields of passion,
So to my silence condone…
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
I wanted to hold you, to feel you anew,
I wanted to cuddle, til the morning dew.
But to be so close, is not a must,
Must everything be torn from us?
Should i cry before i wake,
Or try to make another date?
Is all you see, my skin surround,
Do you even care if i’m not around?
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
I long for the warmth of an embrace,
I want of life more than i can taste.
But you push me aside with waves of want,
My emotions died, to countless to flaunt.
And though i may live another day,
And though my life may seem to stay,
And though my heart sinks into the abyss,
And i know not how much more i can take of this.
Why, when i long to trust,
Must everything turn to lust?
12-1-2001