Here I sit and try to write,
I stare at the page so white.
Displayed on a moving screen,
a past of not so serene.

Clear my head, I know I must,
blow off this season of mistrust.
Clear my mind from what I seek,
for the chains that bind make me weak.
Trying to break a link in the chain,
the past too strong, I’m paralyzed by pain

Here I sit and try to dream,
I’m moved back to that dastardly screen.
I lived that life, it is the past,
burying it does not last.

Clear my head, why can’t I see,
the past becomes an undead zombie.
Clear my mind, when will I wake,
To stop counting each and every mistake.
It does not matter, again and again,
down I drown, paralyzed by pain.

Here I sit and try to wish,
my life had turned out better than this.
But the past will never let me go,
this damn ghost keeps stealing the show.

Clear my head, I know I must,
forget the lies and mistrust.
Clear my mind from what I seek,
before my future becomes too bleak.
And pick the lock that holds the chain,
that keeps me paralyzed by pain.

2010?