Author Archives: Arcane Cognition

About Arcane Cognition

I write what i see. I write what I know. I write what I feel. I do not write what i think.

Don’t Tell Me Shit

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You look at me and see something wrong,
Is it your place to say where I belong?
Who was here first, was it me or you?
I don’t need you telling me what to do.

Don’t tell me shit.

Have you walked a mile in these tennis shoes,
Suicide surround you while you sing the blues.
Do you walk at night alone in despair,
You don’t go where I go, but I can take you there.

Don’t tell me shit.

Are my eyes still to cloudy, swear I can’t see,
Judge all my actions, instead of just me.
What’s behind closed doors, hidden in my eye,
You don’t understand, you don’t want to die.

Don’t tell me shit.

I’m a void of darkness, I run in my sleep,
I’m carrying a secret, I just can’t keep.
The more it comes closer the more I realize,
I’m in over my head, and I can’t reach the sky.

Don’t tell me shit.

So don’t get to close, or you’ll walk on glass,
From the shattered dream that wasn’t meant to last.
Cause there’s no hope for me, it’s already been to long,
Just let me survive, til I can no longer hold on.

Don’t tell me shit.

2-6-97

Did You Think

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I saw you walking with him
I saw you talking with him
Did you think I wouldn’t notice
Did you think that I was blind
Did you think I wouldn’t care
That he was stealing what was mine

(What did you expect me to do
Do you think I don’t love you
Did you want me to lay down and die
Fight for you or give up and cry)

Have I treated you bad
Have I ever made you sad
Do you think I don’t love you
Do you think that I don’t care
Do you think I’ll let him have you
While I’m just standing there

(Chorus)

What did you think I would do
Let him have his hands all over you
Did you think I wouldn’t react
Did you think I’d walk away
Did you think I’d really lose you
Because you want to act this way

(Chorus)

October 2 1995

I didn’t stand a chance

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My hands were tied behind my back,
as I watched the final heart attack.
How could I cry, or shout, or scream, or care,
When gagged I  was, all I could do was stare.
And stare I did with much chagrin,
With NOTHING to change the state I’m in.
And there they come to haul him away,
And I must plot to save the day.
My stupid hands, my stupid heart,
I hate this place, it falls apart.
I loose, I gain, I turn away,
I wonder if I will ever live to see the day,
When the fighting stops and the anger subsides,
The confusion bails, and the loneliness dies.
My hands were tied behind my back,
as I watched the final heart attack.
How could I shout, or scream, or care,
When they would never let me be there?

10-06-2006

If Only You Didn’t Care

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Though the days do quickly pass
And my summers now winters share.
In a land that was forgotten
Now you can find me there.
Alone it seems in the dark
On a wave of shifting sand.
Until the light wash over me
And I remember who I am.
Where is the Time
For it does pass,
A minute and the hours,
Until again
I wear this mask,
And stand amidst the flowers.
Though the days do quickly pass
And my summers now winters share.
In a place I’d once forgotten
If only you didn’t care.
6-4-2001

Demon

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Flashing deep into the night,
Suddenly an awesome sight.
Seeing you, Seeing me,
What more can it be?

Who are you, Creature of Darkness,
falling into everyone’s likeness.
Show me who you really are,
You turn into a movie star.

Evil Demon, straight from Hell,
I’m looking but i can not tell.
Wanting you, Wanting me,
I see you who do you see?

Stars are flashing in your eyes,
You walk as if you’re in disguise.
Where do you come from, Lover of Mine?
How Can you make and alter time?

Beauty deeper than the bone,
Heart & touch colder than stone.
How my heart beats fast with desire,
Yet you take me still much higher.

Do you want me to want you,
My soul you see straight through
All my lies you dissapaite
All the longing, all the wait.

Passion so sweet, Kisses so burning,
Knowing you are all I’m yearning
Twisting thoughts in your evil mind.
Yet you can still be so kind

4-9-89

Dearest Mirror

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Dearest mirror can you see,
deep inside my fantasy.
Can you see this blood soaked plain,
For I  am sure  I am going insane.
I do not want him in my mind,
his thoughts for me they are not kind.
Oh Mirror Dearest can you tell,
this demon takes me straight to Hell.
There’s no disguising what I feel,
I no longer know what is real.
I do not want to hold his hand,
He doesn’t know just Who I am.
Dear Dearest Mirror does he know,
that my hate from love does truly grow?
And I will leave his corpse down there,
where he can lay and forever Stare.
I do not want him in my life,
I only want him to feel my knife.

4-5-2007

Did You Ever Dare to Dream

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I watched the sunlight from outside, slowly creeping in,
As dawn arose, standing by my side, I am ready to begin.
Did you ever dare to dream, that mermaids lived with scale,
Or unicorns roam trampled woods, do pirates still set sail?
Are the hours long enough, do you see them dwindle fast?
Will you ever see your future, if you can’t forget your past?

I watched the sunlight from outside, radiate my room,
Shadows cast along my wall, it is now high noon.
Did you ever dare to dream, that nymphs had hair of green,
Or Fairies flew with flowers dew, a kingdom have you seen?
Are the hours long enough, Do the minutes slip away?
Will you ever see tomorrow, if you live in yesterday?

I watched the sunlight from outside, slowly fade to dark,
The night it comes to over shadow, the day that I embarked.
Did you ever dare to dream, That Vampires walked the earth,
Or zombies still lie bitterly, and Ghost give fear new birth?
Are the hours long enough, the sunlight has long since seeped out,
Will you ever see forevermore, when right now you live in doubt?

10-14-2006

Dangerous Intentions

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My eyes are blurry, my sights are low,
I’m trying to hide, but there’s no place to go.
You can tell I’m in for stormy weather,
For all my days are melding together.

You hold nothing but Dangerous Intentions.
Running and chasing in all directions.
Leave me wondering, what can be done,
To vanquish your forces before the sun.

I see on the horizon a fading light,
The door once closed, I’ll have to fight.
Oh future seer, seeped in knowledge,
How lost am I, in your foliage.

I learned my limit, I learned my stay,
I learned to run, I once walked away.
And as I prepare to make my stand,
I am afraid, of who I am.

2-11-97

Dancers

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It’s raining again today, just like yesterday,
I’m listening to the rain fall and the lightning play.
There’s nothing more to do, but sit and cry,
Since this rain has fallen, I’ve wanted to die.

There’s no loneliness that can’t be conquered,
No silence unbroken, no time that faltered.
There’s no dream that can’t mend in time,
If only just once the sun would shine.

The thunder calls out your name and mine,
As I watch dancers, dance out of time.
And glitter falls like dewdrops on the page,
The party goes on with the latest rage.

The sky so dark and gray it would seem,
That I am living some endless dream.
Of which I shall never once awake,
For never do I see the daybreak.

Why did we come here, what did we seek,
In this rain, at this party, did you peek?
The dancers dance without rhythm or rhyme,
When do we notice we’ve run out of time?

If I miss you, I mean I’m alone,
If I love you, my heart is of stone.
And if I should turn you away,
I’ve left the party for the rain to play.
9-4-96

No One Can Comprehend

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Why am I always alone, he turns away from me,
Why should I even try for what I long to be.
I had learned so much from the one before,
Does everyone think I can take much more?
No one can comprehend,
Why my life can not bend.
Hurt and frustration how long this time,
Til another heart ache I find,
Though they promise the world to me,
I’ll always know this can not be.
No one can comprehend,
How long it takes my heart to mend.
I long to cry to mourn my loss,
But it’s the way the coin is tossed.
It’s tossed the same all the time,
And yet tomorrow the sun will shine.
No one can comprehend,
Why do I even bother to try again.
I do not think I will go to another,
It stays the same I don’t need to bother.
I guess this is God’s will to be alone,
So I will sit and turn to stone.
No one can comprehend,
Why I call this life the end.

1989 maybe 96